Hellboy

Well the beginning of January was worse than anything before it which is why the blog stopped.

The medical team have been well too optimistic about expectation of recovery. Its like I had trained to get through a 100m sprint I knew would be horrendous - J and I had both mentally and physically prepared for a world where I might 'manage to eat Xmas dinner', where in fact the reality was end of Dec and beginning of Jan was worse than any other stage post RT.

Apparently this is common as well - four weeks post RT is not long.

It got to the stage where I could not get out of bed at all. This was compounded by a too high dose of morphine - at this stage I was on 100mg of morphine an hour delivered by a Duralgesic patch.